Eliot had to struggle through a moment of inner self-doubt. Maybe he was less qualified to talk about this than he'd thought. He only had so much of a grip on his own issues...
He was also feeling more than a touch of responsibility. There were dozens of other people in the castle, and Beau had chosen to trust him. He couldn't just back out.
Okay. What if she did do it again? What would happen then?
"Then — you'll feel shitty again. So if you don't do it again, you get to not feel worse than you do right now. You just... gotta remember that the next time you think you might want to. If there ever is a next time."
It wasn't dissimilar to a speech he'd given himself in his own head, a few dozen times before. Usually he'd done it in the middle of a post-cocaine hangover — never over hitting people. Still. Eliot found he could kind of relate.
"If that sounds easier said than done, that's cause it usually is. But it's not impossible."
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He was also feeling more than a touch of responsibility. There were dozens of other people in the castle, and Beau had chosen to trust him. He couldn't just back out.
Okay. What if she did do it again? What would happen then?
"Then — you'll feel shitty again. So if you don't do it again, you get to not feel worse than you do right now. You just... gotta remember that the next time you think you might want to. If there ever is a next time."
It wasn't dissimilar to a speech he'd given himself in his own head, a few dozen times before. Usually he'd done it in the middle of a post-cocaine hangover — never over hitting people. Still. Eliot found he could kind of relate.
"If that sounds easier said than done, that's cause it usually is. But it's not impossible."